This is one of those rare days when I really don't want to write at all. I just finished a chapter that I thought was going to be awful and it turns out that I actually really LOVE LOVE LOVE it. Then I start on the next chapter and I just can't concentrate. The baby is fussy and I would rather snuggle her. She will be 2 soon which means she's not going to want to snuggle much longer (most likely) so I get in the time when I can.
I need to write. I need to have the book ready for final editing by the time my kids have a five day weekend next week so they can help me but it just isn't going to happen. I still have six or seven more chapters to rewrite/edit. I crave the work, but I just couldn't tonight. I had to take a break for the evening. I did not work from eight pm on.
Why did I not want to work today? Well it wasn't just the fussy baby or the high/low of coming off a fabulous chapter. It was a mix of many things. I finally didn't have to drive the husband to work everyday so I was thrilled but then I found out that a friend suffered a devastating loss{I love you sweetie!} and then my car broke down so we are back to the one car thing. Then I found out that we have a huge storm coming and I'm not quite ready for it. Oh and lets not forget that I don't have a comfortable place to work. I don't have a desk right now and can't get one. I can't sit at the table because of my bad hips so that leaves the very uncomfortable couch where I can't spread out and work the way I like to. Now some of these things are actually stupid reasons to be upset (and a couple aren't) but when you add them all up it comes out to be a 'not wanting to write a word for the book' kind of night for me. I needed a break!Will tomorrow be any better? I sure hope so. I hope to finish the chapter I am on and at least half of the next one. If for some reason I can't, I think I will have to do the self diagnosis of writers block. Because then it will be more than just not wanting to write it will be not being able to write.
I hate days like this. They really mess up how my brain works. But I really am grateful for the novel I am working on and I will love it again soon.
Until next time...Just go with the flow and if that little voice inside you tells you to take a break, DO IT. Don't stress yourself out or you will just make things worse. <3
6 comments:
Since I'm reading this instead of working on my own book, I think I can understand taking a break...and not feeling too badly about it.
I sure hope my second book isn't like this. I think maybe I'm in too big of a hurry to start on publishing so I am being too hard on myself. I really need to relax and enjoy myself more. Best of luck with your book! <3
I can ONLY write when inspired! When I try to force it, it's crap, I don't know how you do it, when you don't want to.
I am slowly learning how not to feel guilty so I won't write when I'm not inspired because then it really does turn out to be crap. Hence the reason I am still not happy with my Chapter 8. LOL Thank goodness with this book, I had most of it already written and only have to fill in the blanks!
Good advice! When my brain does not want to write, a lot it seems, I write a word cluster in my journal. I feel less guilty, and many of these clusters have turned into blog posts! OK, my novel or memoir, not so much! I admire your determination! Send some my way!
I recently started doing the word cluster thing and it does help with the blogs. My novel though...not really ;) I am sending you a lot of determination dust! <3
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