I'm free! Well, kind of. I still have three little ones at home (and a college kid too) so I'm not THAT kind of free, but still free nonetheless. The hubs and I can't up and take a cruise anytime we want...yet. But if he has a weekday off occasionally we can spend it together without the kids. We can have lunch together without the kids. I can sleep in without having to worry about the kids. You see, my final baby has started Kindergarten.
It was a day I looked forward to and dreaded all at the same time. My baby was growing up and leaving me for seven hours a day. Wow! I thought the day would never come when I got pregnant with her but it finally did.
I don't usually take the kids to school because I have a hard time driving but this time I tagged along with the Hubs as he took them to the first day of Kinder, 3rd, and 5th. I walked my baby into the school and waited while she found her jacket/backpack hook. Then I kissed her goodbye and sent her to the playground with her brother and sister. I didn't shed one tear - and no, I don't feel guilty.
I don't know if it is because I felt confident in the ability of her siblings to take care of her or if it was because she has a teacher that I adore (Both older littles had her for first grade). All I know is that I was kind of happy. I've raised five kids to the point of starting school and I felt accomplished and yes, I also felt relieved that I could now have a little bit of time for myself. I can't feel guilty about being proud of having paid my dues.
I'm especially glad I didn't break down this final time because little miss sure as heck didn't. In fact, when we picked her up she cried because she didn't want it to end and wanted to go back. And so far she loves every minute that she is there. She's made friends and adores her teachers. How lucky can a mom get, huh? I mean seriously she said, "If I was president of the school I would make everyone have school on weekends too!"
Well then! lol Isn't it always nice when everyone ends up happy? I love my me time...except yeah, occasionally, I do miss my little miss...and she seems to love her school time. It couldn't have turned out better. After five tries I finally got my guilt free first day of school! Woo Hoo!
And so I bet a lot of you thought I would just sit down once she was gone and write, write, write. Right? Nope. My creativity took a horrible, scary, unexpected sabbatical, but that is a story for another day. Until Next Time...